Smoothing out the Lumps

This week has been a rough one, emotionally, and yesterday it seemed to hit a peak. I was so grateful to have an incredibly busy day at work to keep me focussed on something other than my attempt at reigning in the bucking broncos in my mind. I finally got into a doctor earlier this… Continue reading Smoothing out the Lumps

Art Therapy, Therapy, and Farewells

Last night turned out to be an incredibly needed experience for me. It was the first time I had done art therapy with this group and I didn’t know what to expect exactly, I was just excited to be doing art. Since I have gotten out of the hospital I have thought so much about… Continue reading Art Therapy, Therapy, and Farewells

Family Night

Last night, at family night, I was lucky enough to not only have Dave with me, but one of my very best friends. If I went into detail here of our lives together, it would turn into a novel, and though I assure you it would kick ass, I’ll keep it simple and say, she and… Continue reading Family Night

Anxiety Hangover

I am emotionally and physically drained today. It’s amazing how beat up your body and mind feel after a day full of anxiety. This disorder is one that takes a very real tole on your whole self. It feels a lot like the day after a rough flu, or a bad hangover, when you’re still… Continue reading Anxiety Hangover

Overcome with Gratitude

Writing about my journey so far has been incredibly therapeutic for me. The crippling weight of the armor I have built up over the years has become lighter with every entry. I have begun to accept my feelings instead of burring them. It has been very safe, private, protected….until today. I didn’t quite prepare myself for… Continue reading Overcome with Gratitude

Keep Busy, Stay Sober

Friday was crazy busy at work, which I like for the most part. I always feel very accomplished when I have those days. I am a bit behind because of how crazy it was, but I will get ahold of things tomorrow morning, with my hopefully realistic list. There are multiple times in any given… Continue reading Keep Busy, Stay Sober

Hope

This week has been exhausting. Group on Monday was different. Our usual counselor wasn’t there and the energy of the person who filled in was nothing like what I am used to in that intimate setting. There was something that was pointed out and it made me think a lot. I had been having a… Continue reading Hope