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One Year Down….
This is a picture of my latest painting. I poured a lot into this one and it tells quite a story. A story of a withering being, held up by the intricate and dense root system that’s been there for years, quietly supporting. This bare being has finally begun to allow the life giving rays…
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Still Pinching Myself
The past month or so has been a bit surreal for me and, quite honestly, I’m still trying to figure out if parts of it have been a dream. Every year, the company I work for has what they call a Road Show where the CEO recaps the past year and gives the projection for…
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Holding Tight to Gratitude
The first week of January, 2017, is done. I’m not quite sure how I feel about things. Hopefully by writing today, it will filter the murky waters. The last couple months have really put an exclamation point on the ‘bittersweetness’ that was 2016 for me and my family. The last two months have been pretty…
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My Journey Thus Far….In Art
Hey look! It’s my ‘sober art.’ I have been having a really hard time posting this one. My instinct is to over explain why I’m making, what I see to be, as a sort of boastful post. It is so strange how anxious I am as I fight this instinct. After all, I have been…
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Well, that was harder than expected….
The last couple weeks have proven, beyond any doubt, how ridiculous my naive optimism can be. My mental state has been put to the test and has emerged with a solid D-. While Dave was out of town, it was also UEA, so the boys both had sleepovers at friends houses. I still had to…
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Anxiety? There’s an app for that.
These last few weeks have been a delicate tightrope walk, constantly catching myself before falling off one side into the depths depression, or the other side into the spiraling chaos of anxiety. The clarity I have from the absence of any chemicals has helped me navigate my way back up to the rope when I have…
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Ebbs and Flows
The last couple weeks have been incredibly difficult to maneuver through. Every time I feel like my feet are planted firmly, a huge wave of depression comes and sucks the sand out from underneath me, sending me tumbling into a washing machine of anxiety and despair. It has been incredibly frustrating. I miss the speed and…
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‘A Vacation, From my Problems…..?’
Sober Hawaii has not been an easy accomplishment, but it has been satisfying. The first night was the absolute hardest. Our little family came in a day before everyone else and stayed in a hotel. The buzz of the ice machine in the hallway mocked me….all, night, long. When I woke up to just water…
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Smoothing out the Lumps
This week has been a rough one, emotionally, and yesterday it seemed to hit a peak. I was so grateful to have an incredibly busy day at work to keep me focussed on something other than my attempt at reigning in the bucking broncos in my mind. I finally got into a doctor earlier this…
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Family Night
Last night, at family night, I was lucky enough to not only have Dave with me, but one of my very best friends. If I went into detail here of our lives together, it would turn into a novel, and though I assure you it would kick ass, I’ll keep it simple and say, she and…