Island Therapy

These last two days have the hardest to date. I am painfully aware this is not the last time I will utter those words, but damn, I didn’t truly realize how hard this trip would be. We are officially on vacation and as of Wednesday at 5, my taste buds have been overwhelmed with the… Continue reading Island Therapy

Prepping

Yesterday, at my regular Saturday meeting downtown I was reminded of how truly lucky I am to have such an amazing support system surrounding me, particularly my loving husband. So many relationship stories full of frustrated ultimatums, stubborn responses and eventual separations surround me and here I sit, next to the man who wouldn’t give… Continue reading Prepping

Coined On

Well, I have successfully completed my 8 week program, completely sober. I wasn’t positive today would be my last because of the holiday this week but it was a pleasant surprise to see my name up on the board when I walked in. Our regular group counselor wasn’t there today and I was given the… Continue reading Coined On

So…..The Dentist Didn’t Kill Me

Yup, I survived the dentist. I’d like to say that I went into that office yesterday like a confident adult, but we all know that was an unlikely scenario. I did to myself what many parents do to their young children the first time they need to take a long flight. I drugged myself. Putting… Continue reading So…..The Dentist Didn’t Kill Me

Lesson learned

Today has been a particularly rough one. It’s a Sunday evening, we have had some thunderstorms and all I have wanted to do is sit outside with a cocktail. I can taste the vodka and it’s super irritating. It’s a good thing it’s Sunday. This is one of the few times I’ve found myself happy… Continue reading Lesson learned

Smoothing out the Lumps

This week has been a rough one, emotionally, and yesterday it seemed to hit a peak. I was so grateful to have an incredibly busy day at work to keep me focussed on something other than my attempt at reigning in the bucking broncos in my mind. I finally got into a doctor earlier this… Continue reading Smoothing out the Lumps

Art Therapy, Therapy, and Farewells

Last night turned out to be an incredibly needed experience for me. It was the first time I had done art therapy with this group and I didn’t know what to expect exactly, I was just excited to be doing art. Since I have gotten out of the hospital I have thought so much about… Continue reading Art Therapy, Therapy, and Farewells

Family Night

Last night, at family night, I was lucky enough to not only have Dave with me, but one of my very best friends. If I went into detail here of our lives together, it would turn into a novel, and though I assure you it would kick ass, I’ll keep it simple and say, she and… Continue reading Family Night

Overcome with Gratitude

Writing about my journey so far has been incredibly therapeutic for me. The crippling weight of the armor I have built up over the years has become lighter with every entry. I have begun to accept my feelings instead of burring them. It has been very safe, private, protected….until today. I didn’t quite prepare myself for… Continue reading Overcome with Gratitude

Keep Busy, Stay Sober

Friday was crazy busy at work, which I like for the most part. I always feel very accomplished when I have those days. I am a bit behind because of how crazy it was, but I will get ahold of things tomorrow morning, with my hopefully realistic list. There are multiple times in any given… Continue reading Keep Busy, Stay Sober