Tag: recovery

  • Rough days… Good thing there’s Cavalia.

    Rough days… Good thing there’s Cavalia.

    5/7/16 The silver lining over the last week or so has been hard to see. Pain and frustration have been thick and I haven’t wanted to write at all. There is a pain in my side I have never felt before. After an x-ray, the doctor told me there is some sort of lump in […]

  • Look for the silver lining

    Look for the silver lining

    4/26/16 This past weekend and week was a hard couple of days. I didn’t really have the mental energy to write, which I am sure didn’t help my situation. I made it through without a drink though and accomplished kind of a lot. Cleaned out part of the garage, started an art project, and didn’t […]

  • Rough day. Harsh realizations

    Rough day. Harsh realizations

    4/22/16 Today has been the hardest day to date. We had some things that happened in the middle of the night involving my oldest and it will require months and months of dealing with the different consequences of his one dumb choice. I kept opening his door throughout the night to make sure he hadn’t […]

  • First time for everything

    First time for everything

    color+code+assessment 4/19/16 Today is frustrating. I am still waking up with a headache and with an overall ache in my body. It’s unrealistic, I know, to think that one day I will wake up feeling great, but damn, I was hoping it would be getting a lot better by now. My first appointment with a […]

  • On edge

    On edge

    4/16/16 Well, I’m deeply concerned. My husband said this short fuse may be a phase. He mentioned he went through something similar. I hope so. It may be that I just need to re-learn how to have patience without some sort of depressant in my system. There are so many things I am having to […]

  • Pavlov

    Pavlov

    4/15/16 This morning, since today isn’t a group day, I will start if off with a couple things we do in our groups and share my mood, a plus and negative of yesterday, and what I’ve been doing to help stay sober. My mood is hopeful. Yesterday, as is every day, my positive was the […]

  • Group

    Group

    4/14/16 Tonight was group again, where we split the large group into two smaller groups and let each other talk. I like these nights, they are open, safe, honest and healing. They asked me more in depth, about my past and what had brought me there. It was hard to tell everyone, but the more […]

  • Climb on….I’ll spot you.

    Climb on….I’ll spot you.

    4/14/16 Last night was a positive experience. It was raining so we stayed in the gym and climbed. I didn’t climb, just watching people do it made me severely dehydrated. I tried to traverse, but the spewing water coming from my palms made more than three holds impossible. I did, however, cheer hard for all […]

  • One foot in front of the other

    One foot in front of the other

    4/13/16 I forgot to write my positive self talk yesterday. I backed masterfully into a parking space, I was pretty proud of that. I also didn’t use my lunch hour to take the cash in the house down to the liquor store. That was a difficult thing. I could have had it gone before my […]

  • The Day After

    The Day After

    4/12/16 Today is a lot like the day after a big workout when you have the ridiculous expectation of seeing a huge difference in the mirror when you get out of the shower, realizing that there isn’t, and further realizing you’re going to have to work out again in order to see one. I kinda […]