Hey look! It’s my ‘sober art.’ I have been having a really hard time posting this one. My instinct is to over explain why I’m making, what I see to be, as a sort of boastful post. It is so strange how anxious I am as I fight this instinct. After all, I have been putting these as each posts featured image, why should I be so nervous? I think it’s because I know the real reason I am doing this post, and it’s because I’m proud of myself for something. Saying that out loud makes me feel so ridiculously uncomfortable. In fact, my heart is beating a thousand times a minute and it’s taking everything I have to stop myself from erasing this whole thing and immersing myself in Netflix instead. I am going to keep moving forward though because I feel it’s an important step for me right now, acknowledging the fact that I have pride in what I have created….sober. I know I have said this before, but the fear of sobriety taking away my creativity has been a real one. The fact that I have been able to still express myself through my art, is such a welcomed surprise. I am so incredibly grateful to Nana for showing me the healing power that comes from expressing myself through creation. I think she would be proud of these too.
Thank you for looking at them, like them or not. Thank you. And thank you for allowing me this moment to give myself a high five. Now I have to upload this before I change my mind, again.
Love to you all!!!