Sober Hawaii has not been an easy accomplishment, but it has been satisfying. The first night was the absolute hardest. Our little family came in a day before everyone else and stayed in a hotel. The buzz of the ice machine in the hallway mocked me….all, night, long. When I woke up to just water… Continue reading ‘A Vacation, From my Problems…..?’
I am emotionally and physically drained today. It’s amazing how beat up your body and mind feel after a day full of anxiety. This disorder is one that takes a very real tole on your whole self. It feels a lot like the day after a rough flu, or a bad hangover, when you’re still… Continue reading Anxiety Hangover
Writing about my journey so far has been incredibly therapeutic for me. The crippling weight of the armor I have built up over the years has become lighter with every entry. I have begun to accept my feelings instead of burring them. It has been very safe, private, protected….until today. I didn’t quite prepare myself for… Continue reading Overcome with Gratitude
5/7/16 The silver lining over the last week or so has been hard to see. Pain and frustration have been thick and I haven’t wanted to write at all. There is a pain in my side I have never felt before. After an x-ray, the doctor told me there is some sort of lump in… Continue reading Rough days… Good thing there’s Cavalia.
4/23/16 This morning I sent my oldest off to work and then straight to his dad’s. His dad has more spare time on his hands than me. He can devote more time and energy to him. It’s our hope that the distance from his friends and the wonderful influence his dad can be will help… Continue reading If I make it to 60
4/12/16 Today is a lot like the day after a big workout when you have the ridiculous expectation of seeing a huge difference in the mirror when you get out of the shower, realizing that there isn’t, and further realizing you’re going to have to work out again in order to see one. I kinda… Continue reading The Day After