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Quieting the Mind
Tonight was group and more often than not, I leave feeling a little lighter, with a little more hope, and with a smile on my face. I am so grateful for these nights. One of the things we talked through and processed was quieting the mind. Sometimes when your head is full of stress, thoughts,…
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Hope
This week has been exhausting. Group on Monday was different. Our usual counselor wasn’t there and the energy of the person who filled in was nothing like what I am used to in that intimate setting. There was something that was pointed out and it made me think a lot. I had been having a…
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Keep on baby stepping
5/14/16 No group yesterday and for the first time, it felt a little easier to make it through my day. It helped that work was non stop and so was my evening. Going with the family to dinner with Dave’s parents which is always fun, and watching a movie when we got home. My day…
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Boundaries
5/12/16 This day started out pretty stressful and full of anxiety. Work was crazy but the anxiety came mostly from having to go to court with my son. We did receive the best possible outcome of the situation and we are all so grateful for that. It felt good to be done with that part,…
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Turning a corner
5/11/16 This morning I woke up with much less pain. I am so thankful for that. I decided to do some mediation, mindfulness and positive self talk this morning as well as some exercising. It’s amazing the difference all these things make when you actually DO them and not just think or read about them.…
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Rough days… Good thing there’s Cavalia.
5/7/16 The silver lining over the last week or so has been hard to see. Pain and frustration have been thick and I haven’t wanted to write at all. There is a pain in my side I have never felt before. After an x-ray, the doctor told me there is some sort of lump in…
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Look for the silver lining
4/26/16 This past weekend and week was a hard couple of days. I didn’t really have the mental energy to write, which I am sure didn’t help my situation. I made it through without a drink though and accomplished kind of a lot. Cleaned out part of the garage, started an art project, and didn’t…
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If I make it to 60
4/23/16 This morning I sent my oldest off to work and then straight to his dad’s. His dad has more spare time on his hands than me. He can devote more time and energy to him. It’s our hope that the distance from his friends and the wonderful influence his dad can be will help…
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Rough day. Harsh realizations
4/22/16 Today has been the hardest day to date. We had some things that happened in the middle of the night involving my oldest and it will require months and months of dealing with the different consequences of his one dumb choice. I kept opening his door throughout the night to make sure he hadn’t…
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Horse therapy
4/20/16 Last night on the way home from family night Dave told me how happy everyone is that I woke up that Friday morning. It is extremely hard for me to see that part of life right now. I feel like I’m a burden that everyone was forced into baring because of my failed action.…